Trouble

Okay, no, I'm not actually dead.

I've been having a severe case of writer's block...so that's why you haven't heard anything from me recently.

I feel obligated to tell you why, so here goes:

first of all, the whole month of May I had exams.

then the last week of May I was in Washington D.C.

the week after that, I was sick for about a week and a half.

then I had my wisdom teeth taken out.

and I've also got some other personal problems, which involve a falling-out with my boyfriend (even though he doesn't quite know it yet) and some university issues.

so...yeah, I've become quite claustrophobic in the last few weeks, and it's been stifling to my creativity.

I'm about 20% done the next chapter of EoT, 50% of TUtS, 50% of MOBs, and I had to strip down most of my new SS/HG because it wasn't giving me satisfaction. As of right now, my new SS/HG has the most priority...because it's the most interesting.

...stupid basilisk.

regards,

~shigeki

So Much

Remember that git I mentioned earlier? The one who wants to guilt-trip me into being his friend again? Yeah, he's back, and he's up to his old games again. I wish he'd go get social behaviour classes, or go join the monkeys. Oh, pardon me, monkeys, didn't mean to insult you, I just meant that you'd have an easier time killing him than I would.

Despite my own problems, I find myself feeling rather petty, and feel as if my problems are often relegated to the bottom of The Worst Problems Ever stack. It's the amount of deaths my friends have faced over these past few weeks. Just today, my friend mentioned that a family friend's wife had only one day to live, and we talked about it. And now...she's gone. You know, despite my faith and knowing there's a better place in store for those who have gone by, I can't help but feel that sense of loss. Loss for those who have lost a loved one, but also loss for the one who has gone ahead. She'll never get to see her children grow up, or her grandchildren. It's a bit disheartening.

Anyways, just wanted to let you know Chapter 3 of The Enigma of Time is up, and I'm still working on Chapter 7 of To Unmask the Sunrise. It'll be up this week.

Later,

~shige

Second Chance

The new year always bring about a sense of resolution for change. This year, though, I felt...lethargic. I seem to have become so numb I don't care about anything anymore. It's an odd feelings, especially when I can't explain to my parents why I almost failed biology. Or why I don't care anymore.

I don't even feeling like going out of the house anymore. It seems almost a chore to go out, and I feel better by myself. I've turned into a hermit, I swear. I think a part of me feels that if I go out, I can't be judged, and at home, I'm alone to be who I want to be, not who others want me to be.

My ex-boyfriend has moved on to be with the girl he liked while dating me. A part of me wants to congratulate him, but another part can't help but feel hurt.

Creeper has moved on. I'm really happy about that. Stalker has stayed about the same, but I never see him anymore because he's sick or something. Another good thing. Bad thing? There's a girl who likes me. Yep, a girl, even though I've told her I'm straight half a billion times. I guess you don't choose who you like, right? It's really getting on my nerves though. I mean, if she really does like me, shouldn't she respect my wishes? So for now, I've resorted to having an imaginary boyfriend called John who lives in Niagara. Lovely.

All this time I've been trying to run away from these problems (by writing...), but when I fall asleep at night, they all come rushing back. The only good thing for you, dear readers, is that you get more to read.

I'm working on Chapter 7 of To Unmask the Sunrise right now...words don't seem to come out as smoothly anymore in this fic. But don't worry, I'll plow on.

I started a new fic, The Enigma of Time. I've written more words in three chapters of this fic than in seven of TUTS. Check it out, I think I'll be updating that one more frequently.

I've got the first six chapters of Mending Bones (I might change this to Mending Old Bones...) outlined already, but I think the sequel will either start now, or it'll come out the end of May. I'm looking at May, just because I know this semester won't be easy.

Anyways, see you later,

~shige